This is the last time

in the name of Allah,

this is the last time
after three years
for the first time
that just like yesterday

this is the last time
as the time wouldn't turned back
for the first time
that was actually so far away

some might happy
or grateful
as the three years goes by

but atashi wa
these three years
i've learned so many things

sabishi kute...
kanashimi kute...
shiawase kute...
ureshii kute...
tanoshi kute...

wasurenai de...

dakara, sanshuu ni arigatou...

0131-28072010

Sakura

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

i luv sakura...
among all flowers that i've known,after lavender...why??
me myself don't know...even i myself never hold or smell sakura nor lavender...
maybe it's becoz those can be found at Japan...
and nippon wa daisuki desu...

so,maybe i luv them becoz i like japan??




sometimes,when we luv something,we tend to luv all the things that remind us to 'it'
but, why...
when we trying to luv Allah,
we only luv Him when He gave us happiness or money or flying colours in exam or being a good and rich doctors???
why...
we only luv Him when He give us health or time or a good life nor a good fate???

and sadly
we accused Him for our sadness or sickness or our own failure and how suffered we're going through this life...

saa...it's look like that we're not luv Him 'that much' or maybe we didn't even try to luv Him??


Loving Allah is on every single day...there is no season to luv Him and next, a season to accuse Him...




It's not like a sakura that will flutter when the spring is gone...

matte matte, boku no sakura...

still,sakura wa suki^^



~sakura..my new template~
1113-16072010

NEW

bismillahirrahmaanirrahim...

i'm moving...
u're moving...
this world is moving...

i'm making a NEW move...
to do better..
to be better..
to make a better things...

just like a bee..

although we may walk slow
but never stop moving...

it's becoz, the sun never stop rising
and sea never stop waving
till that day...

it's becoz, the time is ticking..and...

my time is ticking..
backwards...
just like ur's..

dakara,never stop moving...

~sabar.....is never stop moving~

1117-15072010

Luv,give the best for me...

In the name of Allah,

just wanna share one short poem i took from someone blog..i dun know who is he/she but the poem is so meaningful.. Thank you to him/her for writing this beautiful poem..

Wahai KEKASIH….

Berikan daku ketenangan dalam kegelisahanku

Berikan daku kelembutan dalam kekerasanku

Berikan daku cahaya dalam kegelapan yang menyelimuti

Tuntunlah aku dalam genggaman-MU

Peluklah aku dalam kasih-MU

Biarlah seluruh dunia dan seluruh isinya meninggalkan aku

……..asal jangan ENGKAU yang pergi

Karena aku tahu…..

kino wa kyou,ashita he...

In the name of Allah,

just now, my jr just came by to give me a present^^ what a nice jr^^ arigatou ne...
just now, my sis called me congrats me being a year older...i can't meet her till this August..
just now, the sun shine bright in the sky, but guess rain will come after this...
live is so short..

'...mereka merasa seakan-akan hanya (sebentar saja) tinggal (di dunia) pada waktu petang atau pagi hari' (79:46)

i still remember,this is what i heard the first time i went to ta'lim in indonesia..on the nice Sunday morning, the ustaz said that the life on this world is extremely short than the afterlife.. that is absolutely true..yesterday, i was a 20years old human being on this planet..n today, i am the 21years old human being, still on this planet..

when i recalled bac,time flies soooo fast...this is the third year i celebrated bday in indonesia n mannnny things happened along this 3 years..these past few months, my mind, my heart n myself was not in a stable state...yesterday also,i feel so sad,dunno why..i keep thinking what have i done along this life? n will i still breathing the next day?? suddenly, i become so scared..maybe one of the ibrah people dunno when to die is so we keep struggling to live...Hmmm..guess time is also one of the 'ujian' that we should be aware..

It seems that my body also aware that i'm not in a stable state along these months..It keeps troubling me until a sis said, are u stress?? Body tends to show that we are in a stress mode.. Sincerely, i dunno if i'm stress or not... sometimes, i really dunno myself...till one time, i'll keep thinking till i can't think anymore...i dunno what's wrong with me..is this just a phase of life??searching for our own identity?? whatever it is, i dun't like what i feel these days...it seems that i've lost..Allah,please find me n put me bac on the right way...Onegai...

days before, my lecturer said that we, human can create human by the latest gene maping technology..then,i think how is it to be a human without a 'ruh'?? they will be emotionless, n didn't have a mission in this life..will they keep struggling to live like the normal n will they keep forcing themselves to the unknown tomorrow??once again,i'm asking for the unknowing answer..baaka da yo??

kino wa, i'm walking in my pace of life,
kyou wa, i still walking in my pace of life,
till then, i'll keep walking in my pace of life,
no matter how stress, hurt n sad i might be,
no matter how happy n grateful i would be,
it's just how it should be
everybody got their own story n their own pace
As HE make my story the bestest for me
so,who am i n where am i to keep judging n sighing??
kyou wa will be kino wa..
n ashita he will be the next kyou wa..
for sure,ashita he will be better than kyou ne...

'Dan kami akan menambah petunjuk kepada mereka yang telah mendapat petunjuk.Dan amal-amal saleh yang kekal itu lebih baik pahalanya di sisi Tuhanmu dan lebih baik kesudahannya'
(19:76)

To my parents,timekasey for all the hardship raising me up till today^^
To my siblings,xie xie for laughing n fighting with me^^
To all my sensei,merci for teaching me till now^^
To my tomodachis',arigatou..arigatou..i'll treasure every single of u^^
To all my enemies, ookini nee..
To my murabbis', komawoyo..for showing me n lead me finding the 'hikari' ^^
To my akhwats, gracies..hikari wo mezashite, issho ni ganbarimasu!!
To all people that came by n past by in my 21years chronology of life, hontouni arigatou...
Jazakillah khair to all the memories n soon-to-be memories^^
N for the first n last, syukran to ALLAH, now n always^^

Minna-san,thank you for making me 'me' today^^

1344-wed-10022010

kenapa sukar untuk berubah...

kata orang,
biar gagal sekali,biar salah utk kesekian kali, asal kita mengambil pengajarannya,
dan hari esok akn lebih baik dr hari ini...
kata orang,
walaupun hujan sepnjang hari,pelangi pasti akn muncul lagi
kata orang,
bunga bkn sekuntum,kumbang bkn seekor...

tetapi,kata-kata orang2 ini, tidakkah seperti memanjakan diri kite utk terus leka,seolah2 memberi peluang terus melakukan kesilapan??
gagal hari ini, kenapa masih gagal di keesokan harinya??
hujan hari ini, maka alertla dgn cuaca,bawa payung ke mana2
bunga, kalau kita betul2 menjaga milik kite, pasti xkn disia2kan...

hmm..bile dipikir2 balek,manusia sgt suka menunggu, menunggu bnda2 yg x pasti akn hadir...mungkin itulah titik tolak kenapa kite sukar berubah...terlalu suka menunggu,manja dan lambat bertindak..

hai diri,kapankah kau nk berubah??
terlalu besarkah halangan sehingga kau x mampu berubah??
hebat sgtkah dugaan itu smpai kau terus tnggelam didlmnya?
atau kau sendiri yg ttp mau hanyut dibawa arusnya??
dugaan,hanya diberi bila kita mampu melawannya..
ayam,pasti lawannya ayam..bukanlah gajah atau zirafah

act,dun be a loser to urself
-fight 4 win-

PUZZLE

In the name of Allah

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle...Every single piece is important n it must be put in the right place to get the perfect picture...Kyou wa, a year ago, i'd put one of the piece in my life 'puzzle' n i'm still putting pieces till now,ashita,next week...or maybe my puzzle will be complete soon??But, what's so special bout that piece is it teach me many things even until now...not everyone got this piece as i'm sure we all have a different picture...

every piece brings different meanings. some piece is bright in colour n some will be dark in colour like black or blue black..whatever the colour is,my puzzle won't be complete without one of them..n it will be dull or i won't get any picture if all of the piece is white or black...the piece that i've mention about, some might think that is the darkest but for me, it turn me to a better person..n i'm so grateful having that piece in my puzzle...

even after a year, i still feel like just yesterday where i got the piece...i remembered in 79:46 where Allah said that life on this world is just like a half of the day, but why still humans live like forever??Hmm,maybe their puzzle is full of bright colours or they even take for granted the dark colours n didn't learn anything from it...

Life is a gift from Allah,
never regret a day in ur life
GOOD DAYS gaves u happiness
BAD DAYS gaves u experience
n both are ESSENTIAL,
dakara, never stop syukur to HIM

Like i said that my puzzle won't be complete without a piece, it also won't fit for any additional piece...same goes to the time left in my life..won't be short for a second n won't be long for a milisecond...i wonder how the pic will be?? is it something that i will be proud or something that i will ashamed or maybe regret?? I can't just hope for the best without trying anything, da ne??

i really luv PUZZLE by Eito...so sad yet so meaningful that brings to this post..hehe..

sore ja,oyasuminasai^^