Daisuki

In the name of Allah,

Ohana means family, and family means no one being left out... So, that doesn't mean the one that have the same heredity is our one-and-only family, deshou??? Those one that can't be left out is our family.

Family is the one that accept us as who we are. Our weakness, madness, guilty, tears and happiness we shared with family. And sometimes, when we see someone doing wrong things, as a family, automatically we want them to know that 'this is wrong, you can't do it'.. Those who ignore what their family is doing, there must be something wrong with them.

For me, along 'this' way, i learned to luv my 'family' not because they have the same blood with me or because i grew up with them or they are the one that showed me this world... If i thanked them for those reasons, then there is no different between me and Kapoor family or a Wong family...Family means much more than that.

To my family, now i've been learning to do everything becoz of Allah. I try to do things for the sake of you. Even sometimes you'll see it otherwise, that is my weakness in showing it. I grew up in a situation that thought me to be strong by myself, n that makes me think,'if i can do it, why can't you?'

Gomen ne that sometimes i expect that being in this way, u can do much better than wat you've been doing right now... Gomen ne that sometimes i think that 'other' people can do things that you have to be told to do it... Gomen ne for my high expectation to you...

....

Just yesterday,i got the answer... With you, i have to be more patient... with you, i have to be more hilm (calm), with you, i have to be much more rafiq...

"Sesungguhnya Allah maha lembut (rafiq) dan menyukai kelembutan dalam segala urusan"

I admit that since KKD i'm 'far' from you,n seeing you 'faraway from Him' is making me feel sad but now, i'll find a way to change it, even meeting you once in a week..N even you don't wanna meet me??? i wanna be someone to you...

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N welcome to this life, my new cute-little-niece, noor deanna sofea... reaaally wanna meet you!!!!


Till then, ja ne~

02122010-0920

This is the last time

in the name of Allah,

this is the last time
after three years
for the first time
that just like yesterday

this is the last time
as the time wouldn't turned back
for the first time
that was actually so far away

some might happy
or grateful
as the three years goes by

but atashi wa
these three years
i've learned so many things

sabishi kute...
kanashimi kute...
shiawase kute...
ureshii kute...
tanoshi kute...

wasurenai de...

dakara, sanshuu ni arigatou...

0131-28072010

Sakura

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

i luv sakura...
among all flowers that i've known,after lavender...why??
me myself don't know...even i myself never hold or smell sakura nor lavender...
maybe it's becoz those can be found at Japan...
and nippon wa daisuki desu...

so,maybe i luv them becoz i like japan??




sometimes,when we luv something,we tend to luv all the things that remind us to 'it'
but, why...
when we trying to luv Allah,
we only luv Him when He gave us happiness or money or flying colours in exam or being a good and rich doctors???
why...
we only luv Him when He give us health or time or a good life nor a good fate???

and sadly
we accused Him for our sadness or sickness or our own failure and how suffered we're going through this life...

saa...it's look like that we're not luv Him 'that much' or maybe we didn't even try to luv Him??


Loving Allah is on every single day...there is no season to luv Him and next, a season to accuse Him...




It's not like a sakura that will flutter when the spring is gone...

matte matte, boku no sakura...

still,sakura wa suki^^



~sakura..my new template~
1113-16072010

kino wa kyou,ashita he...

In the name of Allah,

just now, my jr just came by to give me a present^^ what a nice jr^^ arigatou ne...
just now, my sis called me congrats me being a year older...i can't meet her till this August..
just now, the sun shine bright in the sky, but guess rain will come after this...
live is so short..

'...mereka merasa seakan-akan hanya (sebentar saja) tinggal (di dunia) pada waktu petang atau pagi hari' (79:46)

i still remember,this is what i heard the first time i went to ta'lim in indonesia..on the nice Sunday morning, the ustaz said that the life on this world is extremely short than the afterlife.. that is absolutely true..yesterday, i was a 20years old human being on this planet..n today, i am the 21years old human being, still on this planet..

when i recalled bac,time flies soooo fast...this is the third year i celebrated bday in indonesia n mannnny things happened along this 3 years..these past few months, my mind, my heart n myself was not in a stable state...yesterday also,i feel so sad,dunno why..i keep thinking what have i done along this life? n will i still breathing the next day?? suddenly, i become so scared..maybe one of the ibrah people dunno when to die is so we keep struggling to live...Hmmm..guess time is also one of the 'ujian' that we should be aware..

It seems that my body also aware that i'm not in a stable state along these months..It keeps troubling me until a sis said, are u stress?? Body tends to show that we are in a stress mode.. Sincerely, i dunno if i'm stress or not... sometimes, i really dunno myself...till one time, i'll keep thinking till i can't think anymore...i dunno what's wrong with me..is this just a phase of life??searching for our own identity?? whatever it is, i dun't like what i feel these days...it seems that i've lost..Allah,please find me n put me bac on the right way...Onegai...

days before, my lecturer said that we, human can create human by the latest gene maping technology..then,i think how is it to be a human without a 'ruh'?? they will be emotionless, n didn't have a mission in this life..will they keep struggling to live like the normal n will they keep forcing themselves to the unknown tomorrow??once again,i'm asking for the unknowing answer..baaka da yo??

kino wa, i'm walking in my pace of life,
kyou wa, i still walking in my pace of life,
till then, i'll keep walking in my pace of life,
no matter how stress, hurt n sad i might be,
no matter how happy n grateful i would be,
it's just how it should be
everybody got their own story n their own pace
As HE make my story the bestest for me
so,who am i n where am i to keep judging n sighing??
kyou wa will be kino wa..
n ashita he will be the next kyou wa..
for sure,ashita he will be better than kyou ne...

'Dan kami akan menambah petunjuk kepada mereka yang telah mendapat petunjuk.Dan amal-amal saleh yang kekal itu lebih baik pahalanya di sisi Tuhanmu dan lebih baik kesudahannya'
(19:76)

To my parents,timekasey for all the hardship raising me up till today^^
To my siblings,xie xie for laughing n fighting with me^^
To all my sensei,merci for teaching me till now^^
To my tomodachis',arigatou..arigatou..i'll treasure every single of u^^
To all my enemies, ookini nee..
To my murabbis', komawoyo..for showing me n lead me finding the 'hikari' ^^
To my akhwats, gracies..hikari wo mezashite, issho ni ganbarimasu!!
To all people that came by n past by in my 21years chronology of life, hontouni arigatou...
Jazakillah khair to all the memories n soon-to-be memories^^
N for the first n last, syukran to ALLAH, now n always^^

Minna-san,thank you for making me 'me' today^^

1344-wed-10022010