Luv,give the best for me...

In the name of Allah,

just wanna share one short poem i took from someone blog..i dun know who is he/she but the poem is so meaningful.. Thank you to him/her for writing this beautiful poem..

Wahai KEKASIH….

Berikan daku ketenangan dalam kegelisahanku

Berikan daku kelembutan dalam kekerasanku

Berikan daku cahaya dalam kegelapan yang menyelimuti

Tuntunlah aku dalam genggaman-MU

Peluklah aku dalam kasih-MU

Biarlah seluruh dunia dan seluruh isinya meninggalkan aku

……..asal jangan ENGKAU yang pergi

Karena aku tahu…..

kino wa kyou,ashita he...

In the name of Allah,

just now, my jr just came by to give me a present^^ what a nice jr^^ arigatou ne...
just now, my sis called me congrats me being a year older...i can't meet her till this August..
just now, the sun shine bright in the sky, but guess rain will come after this...
live is so short..

'...mereka merasa seakan-akan hanya (sebentar saja) tinggal (di dunia) pada waktu petang atau pagi hari' (79:46)

i still remember,this is what i heard the first time i went to ta'lim in indonesia..on the nice Sunday morning, the ustaz said that the life on this world is extremely short than the afterlife.. that is absolutely true..yesterday, i was a 20years old human being on this planet..n today, i am the 21years old human being, still on this planet..

when i recalled bac,time flies soooo fast...this is the third year i celebrated bday in indonesia n mannnny things happened along this 3 years..these past few months, my mind, my heart n myself was not in a stable state...yesterday also,i feel so sad,dunno why..i keep thinking what have i done along this life? n will i still breathing the next day?? suddenly, i become so scared..maybe one of the ibrah people dunno when to die is so we keep struggling to live...Hmmm..guess time is also one of the 'ujian' that we should be aware..

It seems that my body also aware that i'm not in a stable state along these months..It keeps troubling me until a sis said, are u stress?? Body tends to show that we are in a stress mode.. Sincerely, i dunno if i'm stress or not... sometimes, i really dunno myself...till one time, i'll keep thinking till i can't think anymore...i dunno what's wrong with me..is this just a phase of life??searching for our own identity?? whatever it is, i dun't like what i feel these days...it seems that i've lost..Allah,please find me n put me bac on the right way...Onegai...

days before, my lecturer said that we, human can create human by the latest gene maping technology..then,i think how is it to be a human without a 'ruh'?? they will be emotionless, n didn't have a mission in this life..will they keep struggling to live like the normal n will they keep forcing themselves to the unknown tomorrow??once again,i'm asking for the unknowing answer..baaka da yo??

kino wa, i'm walking in my pace of life,
kyou wa, i still walking in my pace of life,
till then, i'll keep walking in my pace of life,
no matter how stress, hurt n sad i might be,
no matter how happy n grateful i would be,
it's just how it should be
everybody got their own story n their own pace
As HE make my story the bestest for me
so,who am i n where am i to keep judging n sighing??
kyou wa will be kino wa..
n ashita he will be the next kyou wa..
for sure,ashita he will be better than kyou ne...

'Dan kami akan menambah petunjuk kepada mereka yang telah mendapat petunjuk.Dan amal-amal saleh yang kekal itu lebih baik pahalanya di sisi Tuhanmu dan lebih baik kesudahannya'
(19:76)

To my parents,timekasey for all the hardship raising me up till today^^
To my siblings,xie xie for laughing n fighting with me^^
To all my sensei,merci for teaching me till now^^
To my tomodachis',arigatou..arigatou..i'll treasure every single of u^^
To all my enemies, ookini nee..
To my murabbis', komawoyo..for showing me n lead me finding the 'hikari' ^^
To my akhwats, gracies..hikari wo mezashite, issho ni ganbarimasu!!
To all people that came by n past by in my 21years chronology of life, hontouni arigatou...
Jazakillah khair to all the memories n soon-to-be memories^^
N for the first n last, syukran to ALLAH, now n always^^

Minna-san,thank you for making me 'me' today^^

1344-wed-10022010

kenapa sukar untuk berubah...

kata orang,
biar gagal sekali,biar salah utk kesekian kali, asal kita mengambil pengajarannya,
dan hari esok akn lebih baik dr hari ini...
kata orang,
walaupun hujan sepnjang hari,pelangi pasti akn muncul lagi
kata orang,
bunga bkn sekuntum,kumbang bkn seekor...

tetapi,kata-kata orang2 ini, tidakkah seperti memanjakan diri kite utk terus leka,seolah2 memberi peluang terus melakukan kesilapan??
gagal hari ini, kenapa masih gagal di keesokan harinya??
hujan hari ini, maka alertla dgn cuaca,bawa payung ke mana2
bunga, kalau kita betul2 menjaga milik kite, pasti xkn disia2kan...

hmm..bile dipikir2 balek,manusia sgt suka menunggu, menunggu bnda2 yg x pasti akn hadir...mungkin itulah titik tolak kenapa kite sukar berubah...terlalu suka menunggu,manja dan lambat bertindak..

hai diri,kapankah kau nk berubah??
terlalu besarkah halangan sehingga kau x mampu berubah??
hebat sgtkah dugaan itu smpai kau terus tnggelam didlmnya?
atau kau sendiri yg ttp mau hanyut dibawa arusnya??
dugaan,hanya diberi bila kita mampu melawannya..
ayam,pasti lawannya ayam..bukanlah gajah atau zirafah

act,dun be a loser to urself
-fight 4 win-

PUZZLE

In the name of Allah

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle...Every single piece is important n it must be put in the right place to get the perfect picture...Kyou wa, a year ago, i'd put one of the piece in my life 'puzzle' n i'm still putting pieces till now,ashita,next week...or maybe my puzzle will be complete soon??But, what's so special bout that piece is it teach me many things even until now...not everyone got this piece as i'm sure we all have a different picture...

every piece brings different meanings. some piece is bright in colour n some will be dark in colour like black or blue black..whatever the colour is,my puzzle won't be complete without one of them..n it will be dull or i won't get any picture if all of the piece is white or black...the piece that i've mention about, some might think that is the darkest but for me, it turn me to a better person..n i'm so grateful having that piece in my puzzle...

even after a year, i still feel like just yesterday where i got the piece...i remembered in 79:46 where Allah said that life on this world is just like a half of the day, but why still humans live like forever??Hmm,maybe their puzzle is full of bright colours or they even take for granted the dark colours n didn't learn anything from it...

Life is a gift from Allah,
never regret a day in ur life
GOOD DAYS gaves u happiness
BAD DAYS gaves u experience
n both are ESSENTIAL,
dakara, never stop syukur to HIM

Like i said that my puzzle won't be complete without a piece, it also won't fit for any additional piece...same goes to the time left in my life..won't be short for a second n won't be long for a milisecond...i wonder how the pic will be?? is it something that i will be proud or something that i will ashamed or maybe regret?? I can't just hope for the best without trying anything, da ne??

i really luv PUZZLE by Eito...so sad yet so meaningful that brings to this post..hehe..

sore ja,oyasuminasai^^

the good old days

In the name of Allah

1st of all, Selamat Hari Raya 2 eberibodi^^ 2 my family,friends and myself...This year is the 20th Aidilfitri that i've celebrated,which means the 20th Ramadhan that i've past...But,i'm still da same...Did i become the better person after my 20th Ramadhan??Or maybe worst??Wakaranai..N i feel sad coz this Ramadhan, i didn't try my best to be the better person..

How am i suppose to say this,umm...people said that Ramadhan is the month to upgrade our ibadah..n we tends to say 'dapat x aku berjumpa dgn ramadhan thn dpn??'.. even when we plan to perform 8rakaat for Terawih,this magical sentence will change the 8 to 20rakaat...The question is did we upgrade our ibadah for Allah or we afraid that we'll maybe wouldn't see the Ramadhan next year??

"Even it's quite hard to complete my daily prays before,it's ok what, i did 20rakaat for Terawih.."I bet, most people will think like this..N what i'm trying to say is Fix our niat n our priority..Which one is important, the wajib or the sunat? For Allah or for the word 'Ramadhan' itself...

This Aidilfitri is the 1st time that my bro celebrated it with us.Normally since he got married,the 1st day of raya,he is at my sis-in-law hometown..This year all my nieces beraya at KL..n my latest niece,baby Awal is sooo kawaii..

He is the most cool baby i've ever met..didn't cry, n everyone can take him where they want..it's hard to hear his voice..i guess i'll having new nieces recruitment next year since my sis n 2nd bro will getting marry the end of this year..hehehe..

N the day before yesterday,there was an 'hari raya' open house for my batch..Happy to see everybody since all of us are not in the same class anymore..Arigatou to all of u for cooking for us..N next also will be another open house at my batchmates house..My home also will having the open house..sadly i can't go bac to Msia...

The hari raya feeling when i was a kid, i can't feel it nowadays...Dunno why, can sumbody answer that??The day will be gone as usual..How i missed my good old days..

My mental emosional will be over this week..I love this module..As i love to know what are people thinking about...N what's hurt for me is although i know what people around me thinking,n i want to change their mindset for their own good, i still doing nothing...It's hard to change a mindset n it's hurt to see things keep repeating the same..How i wish the braveness spirit come into myself...N how can i fulfill my resolution this year..

'It doesn't matter if we do a simple thing, but what is important is we do our best for it and so we'll not regreting it later'

So long,jaa~

Today's lesson

Konbanwa...

Kyou wa, rain falling non stop..Is the sky crying??Did someone crying??On my way to campus this morning,looking at people around me going to their own destination, suddenly this thought came to me, what do they think right now?? Did they value themselves??Do i value myself??can't figure the answer yet..

Today teach me that being perfect is no good..Nobody is perfect,but is it wrong to go for it??Wakaranai.. Since we live in an imperfect world,try to accept people just like they accept us^^ Then,if everybody are perfect,what's the point we live with each other??Hehe..

Days before, i watch a Japanese movie, Yuuki (courage)...my Kame-chan is there^^ I was so moved at one scene when he say about how to value even a year,a month, a week, a day, an hour, a minute,a second n a millisecond...Then, how do we value our time n our existence in this world??

Once i said that try to show our feeling n accept others acceptance..For everything that I've done, hontouni sumimasen deshita.. Arigatou for being honest n still, right me when I'm wrong^^

It is okay to slip and fall down even for a seventh times, as long we try to get up for the eight times

So long, ja ne

manohara VS gaza

Konbanwa...

Yesterday,me attending my bday batch..there's many things that i've to learn to know them^^it was a fun evening..me didn't regret went there,still there's thing that i personally can't accept...Q&K may is acceptable for others but not for me, since there's no need to do such things..however, me is nobody n nobody is perfect..(so, i'm perfect??hehe..) omedetou to my batchmates^^

that night, my watching a late-night movie..'The boy in a striped pyjamas'..a tragic story,luv it^^n today, friends n me spend our morning at Monas..hap-pi..from there, we went to KLV,this is my 2nd time went there..huhu..as we all know, a 17 years old girl named Manohara is sooo femes nowadays,at KLV me watched a conversation between this femes girl with 'the sultan' representative...she's just like Rosalinda^^

if i was indonesian or some malaysian is REALLY being treated like that,i also will mad to those who did it..but,we dun know truth, it's a silly thing bickering like that over the media since u can yell from indo n hear it from Msia.. why dun sitting in a same table n solve it profesionally??

For those who doing nothing but butting others problem, there's much more things to think about...manohara N gaza, which is more important??hedonism N zionism, which one is our priority?? Sometimes, simple things can lead to big prob..now, from my lecturer till a taxi driver knows Kelantan..such a great way to promote M'sia..hehe...joudan ne...

Anyway,i had a great day today^^how bout u?? Try to live out our life even it's not..rainbow will come after the rain..(blabbing too much^^) Today,took maaany pics..really luv to take a pic^^

so long,oyasuminasai